posted by Sodapop on Jun 22
I went to church this morning, like I normally do when I’m in a routine. I love my church. It’s huge, but i feel very at home there. I love the singing and worship before the pastor gets on stage.
I normally LOVE LOVE my pastor. Actually, I still do. We are now studying, going over, the book of Romans in the new testament. This is a book I’ve read several times and have enjoyed.
Today, however, the Pastor brought up some points that I did not see. I actually got uncomfortable in my seat. I got a little defiant and I even got angry at one point. I took a deep breath and stayed in my seat. It took all I had not to get up and leave and never go back.
But. Instead of just letting my “emotions” rule the day, I chose to sit there and listen to the rest of the service. I enjoyed the rest of it. I’m glad I stayed.
Emotions are not facts. Period. It doesn’t matter what I think or feel about what I’m reading, the fact remains it’s in there. I can be angry and defiant all I want. I can feel my way through it or I can try to interpret it the best I can. Which is what I’ve chosen to do.
I like to research things. I have 5 different bibles, varying in age and shape, here in my apartment. After I ran my errands after church, I came home and opened up four of those five bibles. Each bible was a different version. I have the King James. I have the New International. I have the Women’s Devotional Bible and I have two other versions that I’m too lazy to go look at what they are.
I read Romans 1:26-27. In EACH one, the verse reads a little different and when read basically, without interpretation, read completely differently (to me!) How is this possible? Ugh.
Time for me to pray and meditate about my confusion. Although, I know what my physical and mental outcome will be, I’d like to see where God guides me in the answers to this.
Until next time…
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