posted by Sodapop on Apr 19
This is me. Today, April 19. I had to go get new frames for the glasses because Chloe chewed another pair of them. That’s two pairs of my glasses she has chewed up. I didn’t have any other back up pair. I took my old pair that she chewed when I first got here and the guy at Walmart shaved off some of the lens to make them fit these frames. It cost me $65 since I don’t have insurance. Thanks Chloe.
This me and my dad at the Yankees/Angels game in July of 2003. We had a GREAT time at the game!
Here I am with a tan. Can you believe it? Damn I miss that tan. LOL I was on a 10 day cruise to Hawaii. This was taken in 2005. I love Hawaii.
posted by Sodapop on Apr 19
I’m so glad it’s the weekend. Just so I don’t have to drive to Lexington for two days. What a wonderful feeling.
I wonder what it would be like to have one of those walk in tubs. I think that would be awesome to be able to just walk into the bathtub. However, whenever I take a bath, I like to fill up the tub before getting into it. I don’t know how that would work.
The girls would not let me sleep in longer than 7am. I guess that it’s a good time, comparatively speaking to when I normally wake up, but damn. It’s Saturday and I was really looking forward to sleeping in. I went to bed at 11 something last night and slept halfway decently.
I have so much shit to do this weekend, since I’ve let it sit and I’ve procrastinated. I’ve got to find cutesy stuff for the registration packets for the mini conference coming up in June. I’ve got the wrist bands and the Serenity Prayer magnets, but that’s it right now. *le sigh* I need the actual folders, some name tages and some labels for the front of the folders. Ugh. I need to make a list of what I need.
I’m sure when I show up at the meeting on Sunday, they will not be happy with me. Shit. I’m not happy with me. But I’ll get it done, if not this weekend, then at the very least by next weekend. I need to make a few phone calls later today (when I know people are awake) so I can get some information. Someone said he would get the folders I need, so I need to see if he has done that. If not, I need to go spend the money and then get reimbursed on Sunday.
I need more coffee.
Until next time….
posted by Sodapop on Apr 17
I’ve been doing nothing but thinking the last few days since my conversation with the Owner of the company I temp at.
While I’m excited he would want me to continue there full time, I did mention to him my concern about the drive and the work itself. Data entry is boring ass work and while I know it’s a part of what I used to do, it’s not what I want to continue doing every day. He mentioned it would move into more administrative type stuff.
What type of stuff? I need to find this out to help me with this decision making process.
There are quite a few positives and negatives in this. You can see my pros and cons list over at the Soda Stand. There is so much more I need to find out though.
Two more pros I forgot to put on that list could be the fact I would not have Miss Gold Tooth and Big Daddy as neighbors AND I would not have to spend hundreds of dollars a month on my prescriptions that cost about $100 each.
On to other stuff in my head.
At one time I wanted to be a mom. Yeah I know, when was that, right? I found some really cute baby cribs online.
I’ve been thinking about how busy the month of May is going to be for me. I have plans on every weekend except one. The first three weekends are taken and now the last weekend is taken. Ugh. While I’m looking forward to it all, I know that I will be exhausted by the end of the month.
I found a funky looking spider on the wall above my computer desk here. I sprayed it with Raid and it fucking fell. I have NO idea where it went, so I saturated the area (without frying anything) with Raid. Hopefully the funky looking thing is dead somewhere on the carpet. I’ll have to move stuff around when I get home from work tonight so I can vacuum up the dead spider. I hate creepy crawlers. HATE.
Must get ready for work now I guess. I dislike this drive tremendously.
Until next time…
posted by Sodapop on Apr 16
I’m feeling like ass!!! Strangely, by noon or so, I will feel right as rain and be OK. I’ll be alright during the evening too and then when I wake up tomorrow, I’ll feel like ASS again. It’s a cycle I’ve been in for a few weeks. Ugh.
I have to take my glasses off when I’m working on the computer. I’ve never been able to leave them on and do stuff. What is strange, when I read a book or do crosswords, I feel like I need reading magnifiers to really see what I’m doing. Strange, isn’t it?
MGT and BD have been pretty quiet the last few days. Even though the girls still go apeshit when they hear them come and go. She hasn’t kicked her trash down the stairs or anything the last few days. Thank goodness!
I’m in the middle of doing my pros and cons list, which I will most likely publish once I’ve completed it. Are those lists EVER really completed? LOL
Until next time…
posted by Sodapop on Apr 13
I was laying on my bed, willing this headache to go away, when I realized my walls were kind of, ummm shaking. Now, it wasn’t happening constantly, but every few minutes or seconds, the walls would vibrate. What.the.hell?
I got up from bed to investigate. My dryer was not thumping anything as it dried my clothes, nor did I have my TV or my iTunes playing. When I got to my front door, I realized it was coming from next door. Yes. That would be Miss Gold Tooth and Big Daddy listening to music. While I couldn’t hear the exact song they were listening too, I knew it was filled with bass. The bass would get so deep and thump so loud every few seconds, it was starting to vibrate my walls. *le sigh*
I knocked on MGT’s door. No answer. I think the music is too loud in there. I came to my computer, turned on my iTunes and have it blaring now, I can no longer hear her thumps or music. However, my loud music is NOT helping with the headache thing. LOL.
I found some cute party invitations online. I’m now listening to the Rent soundtrack at full volume and I’m quite OK with that. THIS is now helping my headache!
Until next time….
posted by Sodapop on Apr 13
posted by Sodapop on Apr 12
posted by Sodapop on Apr 12
In Gambler’s Anonymous, the one affirmation I hear over and over again, is “One Day At A Time.” All 12 step programs use this affirmation. All recovery or drug rehabilitation centers use this affirmation. What exactly does it mean?
Some people take it quite seriously and don’t make plans or set goals at all. While others will set goals and each day get a little closer to that goal. For me, I set small goals I know are attainable for me. I’ve always had a commitment issue and have sometimes been a GREAT starter, while being a POOR finisher.
When I first went into Gambler’s Anonymous, I was angry because I could “never” gamble again. This was overwhelming for me. Being a member of GA, I felt that “never” gambling again was my only option. However, throughout the first few weeks, I learned I didn’t have to say or believe that I would never gamble again. I only had to believe I would not gamble for TODAY. Today. One day. One tiny, small 24 hour period was all I needed to worry about.
As I worked the 12 Steps of Recovery with my sponsor, I learned how to take that One Day At A Time affirmation and make it evolve into my everyday life, not just my addiction recovery. It was an empowering moment when I realized that this affirmation could not only help me stop gambling, but it could also help me live my life in a more peaceful, serene way. What a blessing that has been for me.
I hope anyone who is suffering out there, whether with addiction, depression, anxiety, disease or whatever ails you, know and discover this affirmation. It can be freeing and give you hope in the darkest of hours. I know it does for me.
Thanks for letting me share….
posted by Sodapop on Apr 11
I am spent. Totally spent. This job is killing me, in more ways than one. I feel defeated and drained and exhausted ALL OF THE TIME. While I’m still suiting up and showing up, I’m dragging ass. However, I know that the happier and healthier I get, the harder my disease and the enemy will work to drag me back under. So I focus on my Higher Power and I focus on doing the next right thing every single day. It’s harder on some days than on others. Some days are better than others, is what I was trying to say there.
I am blessed to have received a massage purchase for tomorrow morning at 9:30. GB and his wife, BB, are treating me as a baptism gift. I thought that was very sweet of them. I love those two people. They have helped me so much in the last few months.
I found a website with some CAT5e products on it. They have patch cords with or without boots, patch panels and splitters. Just what we all need I think.
Yesterday, I had come up with this GREAT idea to cut back on my hours in Lexington and increase my hours with Boss Lady. I’d end up having to work like 60 hours or more a week, AND add working on Saturdays, in order for it to work. I am, however, going to start working on Saturdays ANYWAY for Boss Lady, so I can get some supplemental income. Ya know?
I still haven’t made it out to the cemetery to see Rex, which makes me feel bad. But I will get out there. I just need to TAKE the time and do it. Period.
Until next time….
posted by Sodapop on Apr 11
Haven’t posted over here for awhile. Ooops. I’ve been killing myself at my job and just suiting up and showing up. I keep putting one foot in front of the other, a bit grudgingly, but still doing it.
I found this skin whitening online and find it quite interesting. People are always trying to tan and make their skin darker. But when you have age spots or dark spots, I don’t hear anything about skin whitening. Interesting to say the least.
I’m putting off getting ready for work (nothing new there). The weather is crappy out. It’s been raining all night with a few thunderstorms mixed in there for good measure. yay.
Until next time…
