posted by Sodapop on Apr 23
Post title from Send the Pain Below by Chevelle
I was driving home from work tonight and saw a semi truck, advertising for Kohler faucets. It was a pretty black truck with gold lettering all over it. I was fascinated and then realized I couldn’t be THAT fascinated, or I’d go driving off the road. LOL
I was talking to a friend, BR, back in Vegas the other day. She asked me, in an excited way, “So tell me who has kept in touch with you and checked on you since you’ve moved.” My response really upset her, to the point she was in tears.
I told her there are very few people from Vegas who check on me or stay in touch with me. I can count on one set of fingers how many people keep in constant contact with me. I’ll list them by their initials and tell you who they are to me:
- SLS ~ This is my sponsor from Vegas. We call each other - equally - several time a week.
- TB ~ My best friend forever
- KP ~ My other BFF The fucker who got me to move here cause he was and then changed his mind “for a few years”
- BR ~ My friend who called me and emailed me with gossip from back home.
- RL and MM ~ I almost forgot these two ladies who always comment on my blog.
So that makes six - so I need an extra finger to count. Sue me.
That’s it. I had a HUGE group of friends who promised to keep in touch with me via email or telephone. It has yet to happen. You may ask me if *I’ve* done my part by keeping in touch with them? And my answer would be, why yes, yes, I have. I’ve emailed them on several different occasions to update them on my life. One or two responded and that was the last I heard from them.
I would also like to mention that Rex’s sister and I have been in regular contact as well over the course of the last few months, but not regularly enough to list there.
I was talking to BR about this and she said something that made me stop and think. She said “Well you know, Sodapop, you have always been honest and up front about that honesty and it makes some people uncomfortable. Some of those whom you thought were your friend, may be glad that you are gone because now they don’t have you to remind them to look in their own mirror when they are being judgmental against others.”
I laughed at this and told her that several people there were jealous of me, they even told me to my face. I even had a few of them tell me they would see me in 3 months because THAT is how much confidence they had in me surviving here. Thanks for the confidence.
God brings people, places and things into my life and He removes them from my life. Some of the Vegas people were toxic for me and my recovery. I know this with every fiber of my being. I have no resentment towards them for not keeping in contact with me. The ones who really mean something to me have kept in ouch with me. That’s all that matters.
Until next time…
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