Shutterbuggin’ With Sodapop

posted by Sodapop on Mar 30

I’ve been going to church regularly for a couple of months now.  The only time I’ve missed it since the beginning of February, is when I’ve been out of town in Indy.

During the course of going to church, I’ve learned lots of new Christian songs to fill up my iPod with and listen too when I feel the need.

Today, the service was about doing the right thing when no one is looking.  It’s the first of a four week series at church focusing on the book of Daniel from the Old Testament.  It was an awesome service today, BTW.

Some of the songs they do in church make me feel a little weird, cause you know I’m not used to this yet.  I’m not used to singing and worshipping.  I’m getting there though and I don’t feel like such dork singing along anymore either.

Today, one of the Worship Leaders did a song called Undo by Rush of Fools.  It is the BEST song I have ever heard in my life.  Not just Christian song.  Not just rock song.  But THE BEST SONG I have ever heard in my life.   It’s got an alternative rock sound to it and it’s just phenomenal.  I actually started crying this morning when Dan sang this song.

Rush of Fools - Undo

I’ve been here before, now here I am again
Standing at the door, praying You’ll let me back in
To label me a prodigal would be
Only scratching the surface of who I’ve been known to be

[Chorus]
Turn me around pick me up
Undo what I’ve become
Bring me back to the place
Of forgiveness and grace
I need You, need Your help
I can’t do this myself
You’re the only one who can undo
What I’ve become

I focused on the score, but I could never win
Trying to ignore, a life of hiding my sin
To label me a hypocrite would be
Only scratching the surface of who I’ve been known to be

[Chorus]
Turn me around pick me up
Undo what I’ve become
Bring me back to the place
Of forgiveness and grace
I need You, need Your help
I can’t do this myself
You’re the only one who can undo
What I’ve become

Make every step lead me back to
The sovereign way that You

[Chorus]
Turn me around pick me up
Undo what I’ve become
Bring me back to the place
Of forgiveness and grace
I need You, need Your help
I can’t do this myself
You’re the only one who can undo
What I’ve become

While most of the people in the church were singing with their voices raised, I was sobbing through the lyrics, thinking of the GA program and God and how each has impacted me in some way and have helped me back to this place I’m in today.

I can’t do this myself.    I can’t undo what I’ve become, but while working the 12 steps of recovery, I found out that He can undo what I’ve become and that, is very powerful for me.

Until next time….